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In this blog i am looking at the Thought Dimension. 

I am including a brief outline of the mind dimensions i will be working on

at the first part of this blog for reference purposes.

Topic: Sex

Health and Sickness

The Dimensions of My Mind

The Conscious Mind:

Thought: me being touched by the man who i am in a relationship with,  in the nipple

Imagination: the nipple hardening and my jade gate secreting fluid with the hard jade stalk inside my jade gate going in and out in a slow but firm motion alternating with deep thrusts and shallow thrusts that drives me to a point of orgasm

The Subconscious Mind: 

Backchat: (I decided to keep this in my private blog)

Reaction: me satisfied and happy feeling ecstatic- like a complete woman

The Unconscious Mind:

Body Movement: my head turning right and left, screaming intermittently, gasping for my breath

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I am doing self-forgiveness and writing a commitment to correction script in this blog

specifically on the THOUGHT Dimension.

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Self-forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate

in the design of fear of survival - as positive energy

have the thought,

' me being touched by a male who I am in a relationship with in the nipple'

believing that this is me

as who I am as self

thinking these thoughts

not seeing and realizing it is me as the mind

as the alternate version of me

thinking these thoughts
within/as the mind

where within this
i am not aware of 
the origin of these thoughts
realizing that i am not even aware 
of how i created the mind 
of the origin of these thoughts

not seeing and realizing that

the body

is  being resourced

for energy

for the mind to exist

through thinking these thoughts

desiring for him to have sex with me

believing that after he touch my nipple

I can get the sensations 

in my 'jade gate'

and then while he kiss me 

I can get my 'jade gate' wet

then he can thrust his jade stalk

inside my 'jade gate'

so I can be in bliss

like a crescendo

that takes me to

the highest peak

of orgasm

desiring to stay

there forever

so I can prolong the bliss

the positive energy experience

believing In doing so

I can enjoy life

enjoy it forever
making me live the female/woman personality
to the fullest

where within this
i am not aware that 

the body  is resourced

where natural energy

from nutrients

are converted

to unnatural energy

for the mind to use

for me to have a positive energy experience

for the mind to exist

for me as the 'eternally blissful' personality exist

not realizing that in thinking

this thought

and having this picture in my mind

I am using energy

and that energy has to come from somewhere

and that somewhere cannot be anywhere outside of my body

It is being resourced from the body - the power house!

I forgive myself that

I have accepted and allowed myself

to think only of getting a positive energy experience

not caring about my physical body

within self-interest

not realizing that

while i was trying to be physically 'healthy'

by being vegetarian, eating raw food

to be 'healthy'

i am trying to take the nutrients 

that i am giving my body

away from the body

making it sick 

then blame the bacteria and virus

for something that i am 

responsible for/as

not seeing and realizing 

that i am being self-dishonest

in that i am trying to evolve 

myself to be more than who i am

originally fearing illness and sickness

then desiring to be healthy

not seeing that within 

fearing sickness

and desiring health

i am taking substance from the body

so it is the fearing and the desiring that has to stop

instead of realizing that

the desire comes from fear

and that the positive comes from a negative

not seeing  that

as I look and feel blissful externally

internally the body is weakening

and as I feel lighter and more positive

and blissful on the outside

the body is weakening more

and as I desire and participate in the mind

thinking thoughts

i am accepting and allowing the body to get sick

i am accepting and allowing the body to be malnourished

not realizing that as I desire to eat 
sentient food, cooked vegetarian, cooked vegan
raw vegan, liquid food, air food (breatharianism)

believing it was making me look young

i did not realize
my body is aging within 
as natural energy from food
gets transformed to unnatural energy
it's just a matter of time
before it manifest externally as a disease

realizing that slowly but surely

as I participate in sexual thoughts

blissful thoughts, happy thoughts

happy and blissful behaviors

that is driven by the mind
i am resourcing the body for energy

so, stopping mind participation is the key

realizing 

that i can have physical interaction 

with another as an equal

in an agreement without 

needing to fear losing my female identity/personality

if i do not have a relationship with a man

realizing that attraction, desire for relationships and 

desire to have good sex 

and desire for a positive energy experience

comes from the fear of losing my female /woman personality

so it is to forgive my fears

and correct myself in my living participation

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Commitment to Correct Myself 

Script

I commit myself to when and as I see myself

thinking the thought

' me being touched by a male who I am in a relationship with in the nipple'

I stop

I breathe

I realized that this is me as the mind

fearing a negative enrgy experience

believing that if I do not think thoughts

desiring sex with a man

I will not be human

or will not be a woman

as humans 

and women 

think sexual thoughts, happy thoughts

and then physically manipulate the body to behave

directed by these thoughts

I assist myself to

investigate what is really going on here 

and see that my beingness 

is merged with the body and the mind

and that i have to stop participating in the mind

to release my beingness from the mind

to through self-forgiveness and 

acting out the corrected script

in the physical 

as my self- corrective application

birth me here as life

I assist myself to redefine words 

and live the redefined meaning of words

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
thinking only of myself within self-interest
wanting a positive energy experience in sex
I stop
I breathe
I realized that this is me as the mind
separating from all that is here as a female separate from a male
as a woman separate from a man
where i defined the vagina within the penis
and defined the penis within the vagina

I assist myself to come from a starting point of 
what is best for all
and birth me here
as equal to all that exist

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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values 

VS Giving Values Equal to Life 

I realized that i have given mind values to words

'as in

in a relationship with a man = man touching my nipple = sex =  penetration of 'jade stalk' to the' jade gate' = positive energy experience 

= bliss = +100

no relationship with a man = no man touching my nipple = no sex = no penetration of 'jade stalk' to the 'jade gate' = negative energy experience

= sadness = -100

where

in a relationship with a man = +100

not having a relationship with a man = -100

having sex with a man = +100

no sex with a man = +50

penis = +100

vagina = +50

man = Life

woman = Life'

not realizing that the values i have given the words 

were not real 

not realizing that the mind equation is not real

as i made them up in my mind

which has no real physical existence

instead of realizing

the value of all is equal to Life

man = Life

woman = Life

penis = life

vagina = Life

All = Life

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