Female Sexual Programming Day 264 Justification

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Me as The Female Personality
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>Fear of loss/not surviving as a female personality
>>Desire to be attracted to a male ormales be attracted to me
>>>Desire to have a relationship with a male
>>>>Desire to have sex with a male
>>>>>Satisfaction, i am complete as a female 
>>>>>>Excuse: I have to survive as a female

>>>>>>>Justification: I have to be 'whole'

Note: The fear that started this pattern was not being looked at

and the desire is being accepted and allowed with the excuse that one has to survive  

as a female personality and it becomes justified through ones desire for 'wholeness' - when one is here as breath in every moment.

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Self- forgiveness Statement

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in the design of fear of survival - as sex

justify the excuse that i have to survive as a female personality

believing i have to be whole

believing that a female is half complete
believing that it needs a male to complete itself
believing i have to be a complete female
by having a relationship with a male personality

desiring attraction with a male
desiring a relationship with a male
desiring having good sex with a male


and within that justification
self sabotage my process of self-perfection

not seeing my fear- not looking at it and where it started
the real problem being missed
the real solution being missed
the real reward not being 'received'

not being able to take self-responsibility
for the consequential outflow
which is the body being resourced for energy
the nutrition that i am giving my body
being converted from natural energy to be used by the body
to unnatural energy to be used by the mind for it to exist
 
everytime i desire to be attracted to a male
everytime i desire for males to be attracted to me
everytime i desire to have a relationship
everytime i desire to have sex with a male
 
where within this
there exist a consequential outflow  in 'my without'

as this is a holographic universe

not realizing
that this mind participation
can possibly affect the weather, the environment? the air? the water? etc.

it is to take self-responsibility - as all
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Commitment: Correction: Script

I commit myself 
to when and as i see myself
justifying the excuse that i have to survive as a female personality

I stop
I breathe

I realize that this is me as the mind
within fear of losing my identity/personality as a female
where instead of looking at the fear
or looking at the problem
and providing the solution
and receiving the self reward in transcending the mind
the desire was seen as if it's real
not seeing and realizing
the'positive' comes from a 'negative' - desire is fueled by fear

the desire to have a positive energy experience
as a female personality
was seen as if it was real
was seen as 'wholeness'
within balance in polarity

not seeing and realizing that
this is shifting from a 'negative to a positive'
to give an illusion of wholeness
 
not realizing wholeness does not need
separation from the source


where i defined myself separate from a male
and then wanted to be with a male
be attracted to a male
desiring males to be attracted to me
desiring to have a relationship  with a male
desiring to have good sex with a male

using fuzzy logic
that is not using commonsense

not seeing and realizing that
i am just looking out - for myself, as an individual
separate from all
within self-interest
directed by the mind

instead of realizing
who i am
equal to all that exist
so, it is commonsense
to stand for what is best for all
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The Mathematics of Giving Positive And Negative values
VS Giving Value Equal To Life

I realized i had made up mind values and mind equations
'as in

'whole' = male +female = +100

'not whole'  = Female - male = -100'

Realizing that
the mind values i have given being 'whole'
or 'not whole' is not real
and the equation i formed 
within my mind is not real

Realizing the value of All is Equal to Life

All = Life