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Wednesday, October 10, 2012

'I Do Not Want Earthly Possessions' 'Desires Eternal Happiness' Day 184 Unawareness: Commitments









 
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My Experience Of 'Desire for Eternal Happiness' 
Through
 'Desire To live Simply - Not Wanting Earthly Possessions'

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'Not Wanting To Wear Jewelries'
And Losing a lot Of Jewelries Given to Me By My Mom
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Realization

I realise that i separated myself from what is here as this physical existencel/substance

 - where i judged jewelries as possessions being made for the rich

- connecting them to rich people and money and affluence and riches

 -  where i connected happiness in having jewelries and others looking at me as special because i have expensive jewelries 

- as 'FLEETING HAPPINESS' that will END




- I connected jewelries to 'fleeting happiness' - as 'people 'liking me and me being happy only for that short amount of time - which i know will change as i may lose the jewelry or i may become poor and sell the jewelry' 

- I also connected jewelries to one of the ten commandments of Moses 'thou shalt have no other gods before me' - and so being guilty of violating this commandment - and connecting owning jewelries to  'going to hell' (which i connected to suffering and pain), 'not getting liberation', 'not getting salvation'  etc.

 - and so because of this IDEA in my head

- and the idea of Aparigraha - 

Wikipedia says:
 it means to limit possessions to what is necessary or important, which changes with the time period, though sadhus would not have any possessions

I DESIRE 'ETERNAL HAPPINESS'

- my IDEA of 'Eternal Happiness' being -  'going to heaven' (which i connected to 'living comfortably and being eternally happy with Jesus' ) and so desiring also  'enlightenment/salvation/nirvana' - just in case the Jesus story will not hold true when i die - i will also 'go to nirvana'

- so i can be sure that whatever story is true - i will be 'FREE from SUFFERING and PAIN'

which is based on my fears:  
FEAR of Suffering
 (belief that one is not whole, stable and content)
FEAR of HELL 
(stories saying it is hot in hell - fire everywhere- so fear of fire also
FEAR of PAIN
 (belief that i will die and so - fears the 'thought that one day i will die' and it will 'come sooner' when i am subjected to pain)

My perceived 'IDEAL PEOPLE were Jesus and Buddha' and my 'Guru'
- as they turned their back  from - everything relating to money and 'mundane happiness'  or  'fleeting happiness' and gave themselves 'Eternal happiness'

What i did not see, realise and understand is:

THESE ARE ALL STORIES as 'RELIGOUS TALES' !

which i read from books or heard from people in churches, temples etc.

-which i took as MY TRUTH
-not seeing, realising and understanding that the PRINCIPLE OF LIFE  is:
Oneness and Equality as ALL .


What is Commonsensical To Do?

Equalize myself with what is here - as the physical/substance  as i am made from the same substance all are made of 

Correcting Myself

I commit myself to when and as i see myself  separating myself from the physical/substance/matter

- where i judged jewelries as less than me because i connected them to hell, not being enlightened or not getting liberation/salvation 

-based on my fear of suffering, fear of hell, fear of pain 


I STOP - I BREATHE.

I change my starting point

'From' 
Deciding based on creating the negative FEAR of suffering, pain and hell  - then Desiring the positive within Desiring  'eternal happiness'

through YOGA, AM MEDITATION, PRAYING TO JESUS, ZEN MEDITATION etc.

'To'

Bringing myself back here as reality as who i am as flesh - as blood - as the breath in this body

Let go of the separation within/as myself - by not  going within my mind and fearing pain and suffering then desiring eternal happiness etc. 

Let go of the memories as 'unawareness' character as fears, desires etc. within/as myself

To instead of fearing losing jewelries

I use them as an expression of who i am

and assisting in  establishing a world that truly honors life based on equality - where they will not be used for profit and self-interest 

To instead of having thoughts as in:
 'I Live Simply, I Wear No Jewelries'

'I do not want earthly possessions' 

- I stop thinking and take a breath. I clap twice and bring myself back here and  - I look at how i created the thought - direct it through writing, self-forgiveness and self corrective application - and simply live as who i am equal to all that is here

To instead of  imagining that i am like Jesus or Buddha - 'not attached to jewelry and possession'
I stop imagining or going to an alternate reality within my mind - and see what is here - as who i am - as flesh - as blood - equal to all that is here

To instead of having backchats or internal conversations within my mind - separating myself from reality by going within my mind
- I stop my backchats or internal conversations  - and see what is here as what is real - as who i am as flesh - as blood - and simply live as who i am equal to all that is here

To instead of reacting in guilt when i lost something  -separating myself from reality by going within my mind 

-I stop and breathe - and understand that i am not going to correct myself by having guilt - rather, i will activate other sub-characters relating to guilt - so to assist myself to bring myself back here - and walk back and see where i last put it - and find it - and if i can't find it - i take a breath forgive myself, and release the guilt - write a blog and correct myself - by taking responsibility in being aware of what i am wearing and where i put them

To instead of  using my mind and manipulate the physical body and justify my desires for eternal happiness - within stiff shoulders, holding my breath, slouching on the chair etc.

- I stop - i breathe -and understand the games i play in my mind with dimensions, energies as personalities, and how i manipulate who i am in the mind through how the physical body respond to energies /my instructions - i bring myself to the natural stability of breath here - discovering the true expression of the physical that does not depend on energy

To instead of fearing suffering - not being whole, content and stable - creating a relationship with fear
-I stop - i breathe and simply look at how i created all the charcaters in my head and release the energy through self-forgiveness, writing and correct myself in my daily living - and simply live as who i am - whole, content and stable as the breath here that nature provides for me to be - unconditionally

To instead of Fearing pain, death and the end- creating a relationship with fear
- I stop and breathe - embracing pain, death and the end - as the consequence of what i have accepted and allowed by separating myself from all - and using the mind to get energy from the body and within this, 
Through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application -  release myself from what i created as the creator of my within and without' creating the 'beginning and the 'end' - and embracing all of me here - as Life.

To instead of fearing hell, fire and heat - and imagining the pain of burning in fire - creating a relationship with fear
- I stop and breathe - and assist myself to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - realise that i can use fire in assisting me in my living application here - to make fire in the fireplace during winter to stabilize the temperature of my body and many other uses.

I FORGIVE MYSELF THAT I HAVE ACCEPTED AND ALLOWED MYSELF TO WITHIN MY CREATING A RELATIONSHIP WITH FEAR OF PAIN AND DYING - DESIRE ETERNAL HAPPINESS - AND DESIRE TO LIVE A SIMPLE LIFE LIKE THE MONKS - JUDGING THEM AS BETTER THAN THE RICH PEOPLE - NOT REALIZING THAT BOTH ARE SUPPORTING A SYSTEM BASED ON INEQUALITY

TO INSTEAD OF JUDGING THE MONKS AS MORE THAN MYSELF AND THE RICH AS LESS THAN ME - AS I DESIRE ETERNAL HAPPINESS AND JUDGE THE RICH AS MORE THAN ME AND THE POOR LESS THAN ME - AS I DESIRE TO SURVIVE - IN THIS CURRENT MONETARY SYSTEM BASED ON INEQUALITY

-TO ASSIST IN ESTABLISHING A NEW SYSTEM BASED ON EQUALITY - WHERE ALL WILL GET THE BASIC NECESSITIES TO SURVIVE IN DIGNITY

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