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Sunday, October 7, 2012

'I Have So Many Tasks To Do' : Postponement Character Day 181

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself  to speak to my own thoughts and imagination within my mind when i wake up in the morning and think about the many tasks i have to do - and instead of writing the tasks down and allocating  the tasks to timeslots - i 'd rather think about it within/as my mind - where as i am thinking about it i also respond to my thoughts and imaginations as in:

'i have not done my video yet - i have got to do that - last time what did i upload? let me see, (looking at the memory within my mind) oh, it is about backchat - i am now up to date - but how can i keep this up? I wish i can keep this up - what would i be uploading next? Should i make a video on Sunday or Monday? if i upload it Monday, i might forget about it during the day because i have so many tasks to do - that i should maybe do it Sunday.'

I commit myself to when and as i see myself speaking to my own thoughts and imaginations within/as my mind - i stop - i breathe. I assist myself to allocate the task in a timeslot and do it as per when i directed myself to do the task. I bring myself back here and stop making an alternate reality experience by speaking to my own thoughts and then being overwhelmed by it -  to an alternate reality within my mind - so to assist myself to stand with the physical me -  and write the task - with my hand  and act and move me for real to complete the task so i will not have to think about it and respond to it in my thoughts and internal conversations

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in internal conversations as the embodiment of and reactions of boredom, apathy and enthusiasm participating in voices in my head - instead of moving with the stability of the breath
as the expression of who i am that can manifest in actual reality through the completion of my task

I commit myself to when and as i see myself participating in internal conversations and a reaction - as the embodiment of boredom, apathy and enthusiasm a - i stop - i breathe. I realise that this is me as the mind character and what i have accepted and allowed for me to become - so to assist myself to stop and see and apply the simplicity of writing that task and allocating it to the timeslot that i allocated it to and finishing it to completion consistently and not in 'spurts' - i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be inconsistent in my walking of my self-perfection process - as the 'so, this is how one do it' - i am awed - happiness' character - i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from self-perfection - as the 'observer' character - separate from what i do - not seeing and realising who i really am as the creator and creation of my 'within and without' - of the i and the all - so i commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - to assist myself to see, realise and understand who i really am - in the real context of who i am as sensation, movement and presence - and so to assist myself to see, realise and understand how i created my 'within and my without' - where i can clearly see how the creation , manifestation, outflow, relationship, consequence etc. of everything i say and do manifest this world system and who i am in relationship to all that is here in all dimensions - and see realise and understand how the quantum mind  functions and the colors of my thoughts and the resonances and accept and allow me to embrace the totality of me - as who i am, what i am, why i am, when i am and how i am as food, as sex as sensation, as movement, as presence and everything i have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand - to within this  assist myself to take self-responsibility for/as all of me - as life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define who i am as energy experiences within/as my mind -separate from my physical body never questioning why when i am in this physical body - in every breath - yet  i am not standing equal to it or as it - in equality and oneness -in being able to relate to it - communicate with it/as it- experience it- why am i existing in separation from it in a reality/system as the mind as energy that i do not have full context of at all - regarding where thoughts exactly come from - how energies are in fact created -why does things automaticaly come up in my mind - that o do not have control of ?

I commit myself to when and as i see myself define who i am as energy experiences within my mind - separate from my physical body - i stop - i breathe and change my starting point - to assist myself to instead of defining myself within energy experiences to assist myself to fully see, realise and understand ho i created me in my 'within and without' - to within that seeing stop the creation of me as who i have become - and birth me here as equal to/as the body- the breath - the physical existence.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to so readily follow energy experiences and the personification of energy - as the dimensions of personality as thought, backchat, reactions, behavior - so often that this has become so 'accepted' - that i have not stopped for a moment to consider how little i am in fact aware of my physical body, my breathing and my communication, interaction and participation with others in this world/reality- as all the living beings - organisms,  micro - organisms - the actual living reality that is here 

I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - assist me to stop following energy experiences and personification of energy - as  thoughts, backchats, imaginations, reactions and behavior by spotting  when and as i do - and assist myself to instead of following energy experiences - to stop,  move and complete the tasks i directed me to do - and stand - moving myself in the physical and stop posponement of birthing  me here as life.

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