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Tuesday, October 9, 2012

'I Lost It' : Day 184: 'Unawareness' Connected to Responsibility




 

The Word 'Unawareness'


In one of the Solution Blueprint blogs, i said that i will look at how i charged the word 'unawareness' with a positive and negative value, so in this blog i am looking at my relationship with the word 'unawareness' - separating from the word by charging it with a positive and negative value - looking at the words i connected it to and defined it within - where i did not see it equal to my expression.

Self-forgiveness


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate from the word unawareness by giving it a positive value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word unawareness giving it a negative value


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word unawareness with a negative value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word unawareness with a positive value

Positive

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word dying (as an example from the mind's perspective, 'not being aware that one is dying',  as ignorance is bliss)
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word unawareness within the word dying

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word cancer (as an example. 'not being aware that one has cancer',  as ignorance is bliss)
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word unawareness within the word cancer 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word aids (as an example: 'not being aware that one has aids' ,  as ignorance is bliss)
I forgive myself that i ave accepted and allowed myself to define the word unawareness within the word aids

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word crime (as an example from the mind's perspective,  'not being aware that one has committed a crime'  - where in reality , there is a saying 'ignorance of the law excuses no one')
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word unawareness f within the word  crime

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word poverty (as an example from the mind's perspective:  'not being aware that there's poverty in the world' ,  as ignorance is bliss)
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word unawareness within the word poverty


Negative  


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word  responsibility (as an example from the mind's perspective, if one is unaware of ones responsibility)
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word unawareness within the word responsibility

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word  love
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word unawareness within the word love

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word family

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unawareness to the word identity
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word unawareness within the word identity
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Fear

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i will lost my jewelries, rings etc. given to me by my mom - doubting myself in whether i can keep up pretending to like what my mother give me in the form of jewelries and not lose them - yet i lose them - connecting jewelries with attachment to  mundane living - the ego - where i formed a relationship of fear with wearing jewelries -through this,  i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to try to please my mom, my friends and relatives in my choice of clothes and jewelries to be liked and accepted in the family circle, friends circle and others circle - where i perceived myself separate from all - seeing me as part of a group - the family - and that the family is part of a larger group - the community etc. and so tries to please all within my circles - as separation circles -  within groups separation circles -  not seeing that my idea of who i am is me - within my separation awareness of me from/as all life.

Thought
I forgive  myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the 'unaware' character -where i lost many things that was given to me by my mom - my earings, my rings, watch, necklace etc. - where i formed a relationship with the thought 'this ring, necklace etc. has a value less than what i am - as the thought:

'I Live Simply, I Wear No Jewelries'
'I do not want earthly possessions'

 - as what i want to be - based on my desire - to be eternally happy as the 'happiness' character that desires salvation, enlightenment and liberation - living like Jesus and Buddha - leaving everything behind - and just communing with nature - where i did not see, realise and understand that jewelries are made from the substance nature is made of  - where i define possessions as something that will stop me from having liberation from ego - where i judged the jewelries as less than who i am - fearing 'eternal damnation' in hell - not realizing that the jewelries are forms - and that they are made from the same substance all are made of - that what we need is to change the system that makes things from nature and mine nature for self-interest and profit - a system based on inequality to a new system based on equality

Imagination
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that i am like Jesus and the enlightened ones who are not attached to my possessions - so i justified the loss of the possessions i had that was given to me by my mom - within my thought and imagination that i created within/as my mind - as an alternate version of who i am- separate from all that is here - where i see Jesus and the enlightened ones as 

Backchat 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to through thoughts and imaginations extend it further to having internal conversations within/as my mind :

'this must cost a lot of money but somehow i do not see the value of this piece of jewelry, i cannot hug it nor can it hug me back'

-where within this i am defining myself within the positive energy experience that these jewelries and possessions can give me - as i am seeking the 'moreness' of me within my interaction with different forms

Reaction
I forgive myself thati have accepted and allowed myself to react in guilt when i lost something and fear my mom is going to be angry when she finds out that i lost my earrings and ring she gave me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear my mom's anger 

Physical Behaviour
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to when i 'lost something' i physically feel:
My stomach cramping/cringing, shoulders getting stiff, my right hand rubbing both sides of my cheek, my stomach crimping/churning, holding my breath and desiring to hide the fact that i lost the necklace, ring etc. and lie about what happened.

I forgive myself  that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to manipulate the physical body - where my stomach crimping/churning, holding my breath, heart beating fast etc. - to justify manifesting my fears and desires in the physical body - when i lost something  rather than see what is here - as who i am as the physical- as jewelries, rings, necklaces etc. - to instead of go within my mind to hide and be self-dishonest - to bring myself back here - and see the reality that i am made from the same substance all are made of - as flesh - as blood - equal to all that exist

 continued in the next blog
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