The Body: Sex and Self Intimacy SF SCS 2 Day 137 Happiness As Sex Character

 

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2. The Body: Sex and Intimacy SF SCS1
3. http://junejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/happiness-desiring-physical-intimacysex.html

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Quote 1

Self-forgiveness

1. I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to experience sex- believing sex will give me an ecstatic positive experience not realizing that i am coming from a starting point of 'fear of looking at who i am as equal to/as my body'  - defining myself within 'fear of looking at who i am as equal to/as my body ' character

Self-correction Script:

I commit to when and as i see myself desiring to experience sex - believing sex will give me an ecstatic positive experience - i stop - i breathe. I realize that desiring sex is defining myself within a future positive experience - hoping and believing that this will give me a positive experience within having sex with someone - coming from fear of looking at who i really am -  equal to/as the body - so instead of fear directing me - i am assisting myself to  equalize myself to who i am as the body - within self-intimacy - so that instead of manifesting fear in ones physical body - i will assist myself to stop participating in fear - assist myself to get to know the body and form an intimate real physical relationship with/as it - through touch and movement - as i move me as the breath in every moment here. 

Quote 2

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear looking at who i am as equal to/as my body - believing that there is nothing there but 'flesh and blood' - believing that that is boring - defining me within the 'my body is boring' character - not realizing that the body contains trillions of living cells that interact with each other moment by moment - breath by breath.

Self-correction Script:

I commit myself to when i see myself defining myself within fear of looking at who i am as equal to/as my body - believing that it is just flesh and blood - believing it is boring - i stop - i breathe. I realize that equalizing myself with/as the body means i have to take self-responsibility for all that i have accepted and allowed that is based on self-interest - perceiving myself separate from all - within/as my mind/consciousness - so to do this  i am going to open up and do self-forgiveness for who i am as sex - as who i have become - as i have given sex a 'value that is more than' myself - and not an equal and one value to/as myself - so to self-correct myself and birth me here as who i am as self-intimacy as equal to sex - as equal to the body - both in my living application in the way i speak and write and the way i move myself as the physical/body alone or with a partner. 

Quote 3

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i will be happier when i interact with/have sex with another person i believe i love - fearing being intimate with/as my physical body within touch-  defining myself within the 'happy when i have sex with someone i love' character.

Self-Correction Script:

I commit myself to when and as i see myself believe that i will be happier when i interact with/have sex with another person i believe i love - fearing being intimate with/as my physical body - i stop - i breathe. I realize that what i do not want to look at or fear to give myself i desire to get from  another - the male prospective partner - where in this i do not consider the 'behind the scenes' processes that happen when i fear - where when i really pay attention and be here as breath - and slow myself down -  i will see that when fear activate in the mind it manifest in my physical body as tightness or stiffness of physical muscles etc. extracting resources  from the muscle tissues which lead to aging and death - so assist myself to be intimate with/as the body when i am alone without any relationship/agreement - within touch - and when i have a partner to be intimate with him - as i have been intimate with/as myself - assisting myself as i assist my partner as myself - only accepting and allowing that which is what is best for all.

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Quote 4

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself to be intimate with/as myself - desiring to have relationship/boy friend to finally get married and have sex - when i was a teenager, growing up in a 'conservative family culture' - believing it is wrong to be intimate with/as my physical/body - desiring to find the right partner, be in a relationship, get married and have sex - believing i can only have sex when i am  married - defining myself within 'marrying the one i love' character

Self-correction Script

I commit myself to when and as i see myself suppress myself  to be intimate with/as myself -  desiring to have a relationship to get married and then have sex - i stop and breathe. I realize that this is what i  do to not look at my equality with/as the physical/body - where the the sub-characters i created within and as my mind just to evolve this main character - the 'marrying the one i love' character-  is so many - as i live alternate versions of me within and as my mind- as i participated in fear - to now face again and direct - so i am assisting myself to change and stand and be equal to and one with self as strength and courage - to walk and face the consequence of what i have accepted and allowed within/as my mind - and to assist myself to see/realize and understand how i created who am i as sex and why am i as sex  - by listening to the interviews and using self-forgiveness and  self-corrective application as a living self-aware self-principled directive being - made from the same substance all are made of - equal to all that is here - standing for what is best for all .

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1. I commit myself to delete the memories, pictures, desires within and as myself - letting go of the separation as desires etc. within and as myself - and stand equal to the body - breath by breath, moment by moment.

1. To be Continued