Who am I? I am The 'Fear of Break-Ups' Character I Chose To Become Day 112

BREAK -UPS Part 1

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I am stepping out of the 'fear of break-ups' character by supporting myself through writing self-forgiveness and commitment to correction to birth me as who i am as life as the real character within a body, looking at how i created myself as that character and directing me to stop separation from/as who i am as the physical through mind participation to only accept and allow that which is what is best for all life.

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Self-forgiveness
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"Speaking self forgiveness is like – ‘saying sorry to yourself’, but in more deep and intimate way. Saying sorry to yourself for separating yourself from yourself, from not realising that you can actually help yourself, from making your life difficult for yourself, from being hard on yourself, from not helping yourself. And in this self forgiveness as ‘saying sorry to yourself’ you then release yourself / set yourself free from your past so that you can help yourself to create a new future for yourself inside yourself. Through self forgiveness, you let go of the burdens of the past in your mind that is haunting you, and set yourself free to take your power back to change yourself, for yourself." ~ Sunette Destonian Spies

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear of break-ups' character  - having a memory of the past where i had lots of 'failed relationships' - where i try to build a a 'strong' relationship with another- so i can ensure that i can be the character i am living out - and he can be the character that he is living out - even if it is the alternate version of who i am  - and he is an alternate version of who he is - where we are both possessed by this role - desiring more and more positive energy experiences from having a relationship that will not end so my experiences as the character will not end - and then having fear in experiencing the negative polarity of the break-up - within 'fear of being alone' - in the 'future' - defining myself within time - as 'fear of the future'. Through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself  to define myself within time separating parts of me within the past present and future - not realizing i am here as breath in every moment  - through this - i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire positive energy experiences in relationship coming from a negative energy experience of another leaving me -which is  'fear of not being in control' - where i fear losing the touch, embrace, companionship, financial support, of the other -defining myself within all those and being in control of having all those as i perfected the 'mind art' of. getting them when i want to - copying others who are in control in their own alternate reality world - not realizing i am HERE as Life - where i can express me without the mind - where i will not be enslaved by energetics,  friction, movement and balance- expressing me as real control - one and equal as who i am as Life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within  touch or no touch, embrace or no embrace, within companion or no companion, financial support or no financial support  - where i desire the positive energy experience of having someone to touch me, having someone to embrace me, having someone to be a companion, having someone to support me financially - defining  myself within a memory of my mom and my dad not being there when i was growing up - wanting and needing affection - which is a desire arising out of a negative experience of  'fear of being alone' - not having my dad and mom with me when i was a child.growing up.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'insecure' character - where i fear not having security - and desire to be shielded from harm -as the 'desiring security' character - seeing my mom and my dad as my 'guardian angels' - as one who protects me - coming from a negative experience of being punished by my grandmother and my aunt - when i did something wrong as a child - when my mom and dad was working in another city - where i either get a beating or pinch in my thigh or my body - or asked to kneel on salt - as the 'i am a victim' character - where as a child i see i am 'weak' and adults are strong - defining myself within weak and strong.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'fear of the future' character

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Self-forgiveness is the act of rebirth and giving self to self through letting the past as self go and creating a new self that can be trusted to always be what is best for all. Bernard Poolman

Self-commitment

I commit myself to assist myself to realise that i am here as breath in every moment with all the life tools available for me to support myself and write about who i have become as the alternate version of me i created in/as my mind - to birth me as the real character that stands for what is best for all life.

I commit myself to delete the 'insecure' character as the presence of this character as memory - to stop giving life to an alternate version of me in my mind - letting go of the separation as desires and fears etc. within and as myself - and to instead be here as the physical as who i am in every breath - moment by moment

I commit myself to delete the 'i am a victim' character - as a memory within and as my mind as a living character that i live out - to instead see/realize and understand that it is my self-definitions that i am living as the alternate version of me - within and as my mind -  to justify my existence as a 'victim' so within this i desire pity for negative energetic experiences i suffered to entertain me as the 'i am bored' character - defined by positve energetic experiences that give me 'zest for life' - becuase i am not HERE as LIFE
I am trapped as the character that i created within and as my mind - in a dramatic movie that will make everyone cry and help me - which i get satisfaction from - because it makes me 'feel whole' - not realizing i am HERE as LIFE - whole, as who i am as all.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself defining myself within the 'fear of break-ups' character - i stop - i breathe and realize - i am here - to bring me back to the physical realizing that when i am in a relationship with someone - the relationship is not a separate entity - it's about me being self-honest with who i am with another - as me  -  living that -and use that to grow and learn about who i have become - deconstructing through self-forgiveness and reconstructing myself for what is best for all - which is essentially what is best for me.

I commit myself to delete the 'fear of break-ups' character as memories, as pictures, as desires, as experiences within and as myself - and let go of the separation as energy and the physical - as desires, as beliefs etc. within and as myself and be equal to and stand with/as the physical in every breath that i take.

I commit myself to assist myself by loving myself unconditionally where i become intimate with me as my body - as stability - as who i am as Life - unchanging and stable-  giving me what i need from another - so realizing that i am looking for someone to give me what i do not give myself - where being in a relationship with that person is a way of justifying my existence as an alternate version of who i am -  birthing oneself  as the real character as the physical - first establishing self-agreement as stability - and then being in an agreement with another as self as stability - where being in an agreement or 'relationship' with/as another - is about assisting self as self and assisting another as self.- where one's understanding of ones conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind becomes the point of assistance one supports another with/as - as one looks at and becomes familiar with the partner's or the prospective partner's conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind blueprint - equal to and one with ones own mind blueprint - where understanding self is equal to understanding the other as self - where ones self corrective application becomes a living testament of how one walks with/as self as the living application of who one is - aligned with how one walks ones agreement with another as self - and how one assist oneself in situations presenting itself in every moment is aligned to how one assist another - in every situation presenting itself in every moment - as how well one understands and supports self is how well one understands and supports another in an agreement or 'relationship'.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself defining myself within the 'i fear not being in control' character - i stop - i breath and assist myself to birth me as freedom - as an expression of who i am with or without a 'relationship' - to birth me as control - able to stop my mind in every moment - and push through the fear by looking at where it's origin is and use the tools that i have - within writing, speaking, self-forgiveness and self-correction in every moment.

I commit myself to delete the 'i fear not being in control' character - as memories. desires, pictures within and as myself and let go of separation as energy and substance realizing i am equal to and as the physical - as all came from the same substance all are made of  - and stand as the breath in every moment here.

I commit myself to assist myself to when and as i define myself as the 'i fear alone' character - to stomp my feet and realize i am here as breath in every moment -  as all life - within a body with trillions of cells representing/as the universe - i only have to be here as who i am as life.

I commit myself to assist me through writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - to birth myself as a real character that only accepts and allow what is best for all life - and within that birth a new world based on equality - as i mirror myself in every child, in every man or woman, in every animal, plant etc.. For 'As within so without'.

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